Category: my journal

Roses to bring Magic to Memorial Garden

It’s Thursday, July 19 and I am about to begin colouring in my garden. I have donned by new gardening gloves and am busy working in my fledgling hillside garden with a good friend, who has brought a box full of seaside daisies, which we hope will cover the bare ground up here. The hillside […]

Friday July 20th, 2012 in my journal | No Comments »

My own Joyeux anniversaire

Today is my first birthday since Olivier died and I have been dreading it.  Usually Olivier would greet me with “Joyeux anniversaire cherie’’ and hand me his gift while I was still in bed.  I would kiss him ardently and unwrap his offering in great excitement. It took a good three years for him to […]

Thursday July 19th, 2012 in my journal | No Comments »

Big family, birthday fun

Today is my birthday and it is also my only sister’s birthday. We were both born today, July 15, but 16 years apart.  She is my baby sister, which is why I have invited myself to her house for dinner.  My sister’s house is in darkness when I arrive for our birthday dinner and  I am […]

Thursday July 19th, 2012 in my journal, womens lives | No Comments »

Mushrooms and memories on hillside stroll

I am trying hard to nudge out grief from my mind by paying attention to the joy of life around me. There is delight simply by walking down my street with Oscar on his lead sniffing at every blade of grass and piddling to claim his territory. It is strange to do it alone, but […]

Saturday June 30th, 2012 in my journal | 1 Comment »

A Memorable Encounter with Music

Today, June 23, is Olivier’s birthday and a strange thing happened. Friends Ruth and Graham Bettany invited me to visit them at Oakbank in the Adelaide Hills to keep my mind off the significance of the first big “anniversaire” since his death six weeks ago. Ruth took me to Avalon, a new purpose-built cafe in […]

Saturday June 23rd, 2012 in my journal | No Comments »

Grief Grabs Like Fear

It was C.S. Lewis who stated on the death of his wife that “I never knew grief felt so like fear’’. However, I would say my grief is like a juggernaut, a frightening feeling which squeezes out all joy, happiness and any sense of normality in my life.    Instead of happy emotions – contentment and […]

Friday June 1st, 2012 in my journal, womens lives | 2 Comments »